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Because I continued...
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Morning everybody,
I was sleeping early last night so I am up very early this morning and decided to update my long forgotten blog. for a while, I ran out of motivation to update my blog.
I am not sure why really, at some point it felt pointless and almost silly. and at other times i convinced myself i was 'too busy' or that i had 'other things i should be doing.' I still had the motivation to make my days meaningful, but i was lacking the desire/ will-power/ motivation/ energy to write about it.
And then I realized that, that is why goals don't accomplished and dreams are not achieved. because people stop. because they give up. because they make excuses for themselves and allow minor distraction to get in the way of long-term successes. sabotaging your personal efforts can sometimes feel nice for the short-term at least. and by this, i mean that eating those brownies or skipping out on that work out can sometimes feel better than sticking to that healthy new lifestyle (the harder of the two options). sometimes it is more appealing to not create opportunities for yourself or accept the ones that come your way because you would rather stay where you are than begin to feel uncomfortable. comfortable is nice of course, but i believe that what we all need is to feel uncomfortable. when i think back to the times in my life when i felt most nervous and anxious, or back to the times when my challenges and situations felt too difficult to handle, i realize that i am also thinking back to some of the most amazing times of my life. i was scared to go to a new state without knowing anyone and with no friend or family nearby. and i was stressed out about changing my major and career to one that i felt more right. i was too stubborn to let go of my anger towards another person, but i found forgiveness to provide the greatest relief. among others, those moments-those scary, uncomfortable, challenging, and difficult moments- are the one that i attribute to shaping my life, to making me a better person.
To put it simply, persevering when you really don't want to, does not sound like a lot of fun. what i realized during my blogging break was that the mentality i had for my lack of blogging was similar to the thoughts i was having in regard to my healthier lifestyle and other goals i had established for myself. i reasoned that it didn't matter if i went to the gym and that i deserve to eat not one, but two desserts for dinner. i also came to the conclusion that i could only do things if i was motivated to do them. i was wrong.
Later, i decided that i didn't need to feel motivated. what i needed to do was get up and go to the gym. search for job. clean the room. eat healthy food. write those thank-you notes. what i needed to do was stop stopping. sure, motivation helps, but who says that you always have to be motivated to eat healthy. why not just pick the healthier option? why not put on your gym clothes, walk to the gym, and do it anyways? why not pick up the pen and fill out that job application? start now and let the motivation come later. and even if it doesn't come, start it anyways.
In the last 23 years of my life i found that if you give up, you are selling yourself short. you know what it is you need to achieve, and the excuses you make for yourself are only preventing you from getting there. try to see past that. keep your final destination in focus and appreciate the journey you take to get there.
Persevere and see what happens. i am glad i did. :)
Love,
Yuna ♥
Yuna ♥
